It seems that my life alternates between the Indy 500 and a slow walk dragging a cart full of lead. During the school year I seem to always be behind, running around at 100 miles per hour, neglecting everyday tasks like cleaning and sleeping in order to get things done. Then suddenly, right when I've reached the point where I'm pretty sure I'm going to die, summer break starts and things get eerily quiet and slow and I become equally distressed because I'm not any more sure how to handle having nothing to do than I was sure about how to handle having way, way, way too much to do. It is a very strange phenomena.
People tell me to relax, to enjoy the time off, to remember this is probably the last summer off I will ever have in my life. All of this is good advice and I do wish I could follow it-- but relaxing isn't my greatest skill apparently. And so it seems I spend my whole life feeling off balance one way or the other. I'm really hoping that when I get to that point where I'm "grown up" and have a career or family (or a little of both) things might take on a state of consistent busyness that doesn't wear me down to the bone. But maybe that's just wishful thinking! I'll keep you posted. For now I'm going to try to hurry up and relax!
3 comments:
I feel the same way sometimes! What I wouldn't give for some balance... ;)
As far as I can tell, having a career doesn't help. At least if you're a teacher. Sigh. I still like summer better, though :)
I have the exact same problem--either way too much to do or absolutely nothing; I'm not really a fan of either. Hopefully we can both find some balance soon! :)
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